In the last few days a lot has come up. Mostly it's what I should choose to do with my future. I recently found this internship that would be awesome to get, but with that being said. I would have to move, which isn't a bad thing. It would get me out of this small town and I would get to meet new people and make a new life. Ive played this over and over in my head, me looking in the rear view mirror as my small town life shrinks into distant memories. I can tell you know I'd miss my friends because they have become family to me. But I need to get out of this town or I will never be happy. I feel myself slowly falling apart and turning into someone I'm not and that scares me.
i think the thing I'm most afraid of is being rejected by this internship, because of stupid grades. I may have neglected to mention that school isn't a strong point for me, not that i don't apply myself I just don't see how you can be graded on certain things as far as creativity, and questions that have no one answer except the one the teacher agrees with as far as their standards and beliefs.
I have decided that in order for me to have a better future i must finish school, and depending on this internship go back to school into a field that is more cut and dry as far as creativeness and it is a profession that i feel i can help people in.
I'm 22 and i have yet to find the purpose of my life or what i truly feel passionate about. I'm stuck on a road that has now just presented a fork and I must choose which way to go. This is by far the hardest decisions I have..
i read some where that when you have a hard decision to make your suppose to flip because the moment that coin its mid air you suddenly know what you're hoping for.
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